ring n card. lovely.

thank you for the ring n da card. somehow these items remind me of somebody. trust me. i'm so damn touched. but the feeling of confusion is back again. wearing it is like a big promise to u. reading the card set me thinking again. i believe da promises, but the differences are still vivid. i dunno how to bring this matter up . n i could feel da sacrifices u made for me, so much. i blamed myself for doing nothing. doing nothing to show my appreciation, doing nothing to show my feelings for u. i think i'm a coward. i don have the boldness to be in the relationship. i'm happy with who i am now. i'm satisfied with our current relationship. sorry that i dunno how to take the next step. sorry that i don have the courage to say i love you. don ever blame urself for not knowing me well. becos i'm guilty of that too. i dun even understand myself. maybe u would think i'm avoiding. but u should know me. i confess whatever is in my heart. pls don pin hope on me. i'm not ready but don wanna lose u at the same time. i don think is complicated. mabbie we need some time to understand each other better. u're someone who i can confide in n someone who i can pour out my problems to. u're a great friend. a mature person unlike others. thats why i love to hang out with u. there is a difference (= and this difference must be sorted out. i cant give in. i'm sorry. i don think u can give in to. u're so sweet. really. well, is nothing bad. i'm just ranting out. WEESS! feeling so much better. am so excited to go church. slept the whole day ytd. is time to get myself up. PRAISE GOD! WHHHHHEEEESSSSSSS. know someone from OBS who happens to be in the same church as me. DAPHANE! ok i love u. u're just as talkative as me. together, we shake the mountains with our voices. shall meet u one day to return u that 10 bucks. what a loong post. oh yah, Hafiz! i miss ur crap. like really! amanda's crap too. why am i surrounded with so many crappy ppl. urghs. i'm bored. kikuu~ faster make me laugh!!!!!